I spend most of my days fighting back the tears, feeling stuck like a dear in head lights. That familiar feeling of pain that eats at your every vain, like poison entering your soul, on a sentence to death row, because love only kills me. It never heals me although I wish it would, or if it even could, just be true. For every beat of my heart that is broken I can feel the tight knot in my throat fighting back my tears, Tears of frustration and feeling like a victim of manipulation. It saddens me even more knowing I was stupid enough to let go, a love so innocent and beautiful, like the white of snow. Now, my heart is like Frankenstein all ugly and put back together, when people think that I’m sorry will fix it. I’m sorry, save it, you’ve said it so much, I’m starting to hate it, I’m starting to hate you, and all that you put me through, and so I spend most of my days fighting back the tears. Tonight I will let them flow, down my cheek and on to my pillow…
Categories: heart break love relationships
Zeikybaby
I’m a person full of pain and optimism;
reaching for the stars and beyond
Wow, very powerful and raw. I am sorry you are in pain. But it’s okay to cry and let yourself feel that pain and sadness. It doesn’t mean you’re weak. Being able to feel all those things and not push them away takes a lot of courage and strength. Let your tears flow. Wishing you healing and better days to come – speak766
Thank you for your words of encouragement…