Why Religion isn’t for Black People

Why are black people in america so religious? When has religion really worked for African Americans? If you really believe that you and your slave master can share the same God, your living in the fantasy, that has been fed to control and manipulate your very existence. I mean really? Think about this for just a moment. Your ancestors were stolen from their homeland, stripped of all knowledge of self, then taught the white mans way of life. They don’t care if you get into heaven, their only purpose is to make your life a living hell. He the slave master held a Bible in one hand with a whip in the other, as he emasculated the men, to plant fear in the women and children, yet you believe in the words that were fed to you by your enemy. Over 300 years later, all of a sudden their agenda and mindset has changed?


Not when inner city Chicago (mostly black people) is considered a war zone, and not even former President Barack Obama did anything about it. Not when black men and women are being shot down by the police in cold blood. Not when the media gets paid to tell lies and bend the facts. Not when the water in Flint Michigan has been tainted and were just now learning about it. Not when whites are more welfare recipients than blacks, yet were considered lazy. Not when inner cities across this entire country is still in the slums of the effect of crack cocaine haven flooded our neighborhoods in the early 80’s. Not when predominately black men are being targeted to become prison slaves. Not when the schools in the ghetto are terrorized by gangs and drug violence, and children are forced to live like adults, because of the circumstances in which they live (as if they have a choice). Not when there is a copy-write on the Holy Bible( somebody cashes a check) for feeding lies to the masses.

How does religion effect change in our lives as African American people, as individuals, and as a community? It effects everything, how we think about life and death. It effects how we treat others and how we see our circumstances in life. Why try to live a righteous life if all you have to do is repent and you can go to heaven?  For example if I Killed a child in cold blood and repented I would in theory get into the gates of heaven. Meanwhile others dedicate their entire lives to walking a righteous path (the path of the Lord) it wouldn’t seem fair to sit in the same heaven with a murderer just, because he felt bad about being a murderer. Does that seem fair to you? They say, God is a Just God, yet my African American people still have not received justice for our enslavement. We have not received justice of reparations and even for majority of people to see our situation as worthy of justice. How many times have I heard people make references to blacks predicament, like the past is the past, let it go, your free now…bullshit!!! The Jews got reparations for the Holocaust and the Germans used American tactics to complete their heinous crimes…yet we didn’t even get a acre let alone a piece of live stock. I will tell you what we did get though, that BIBLE. They know they can keep you in their control mentally through their religion (simple logic).


There is a way out of mental slavery! Stay true to yourself, stop looking for them to tell you who and how to love and live. You have a conscious which makes you supreme by the laws of nature. Which is the only law that you should follow. Your conscious helps you decide what is right and wrong, but life is not just black and white. So whats right for you may be wrong to me. Its how we treat each other, how we communicate, how we look at the overall big picture, our existence on this planet earth, and the impact we all have on one another. Luke 6:31 Do to others as you would have them do to you, yet people don’t even apply what they claim to believe in (I refuse to be a hypocrite). At the end of the day do what is right without having to wrong another person to get the job done. Yeah your trying to feed your kids, but you robbed your fellow brother or sister to do so, that’s not righteous. understand that the churches you give your money to do nothing for your community(they rob the community)… lets learn more about what has been stolen from us, who we are, find a more divine method of living, and we will see change in ourselves, our lives, and our communities. The new age Jim Crow way isn’t working for us, it never has and it never will!! Do away with the fear of going to hell after death and be courage’s to get your happiness and peace right here on earth. Be apart of the solution and not the problem, and  to be frank with my fellow brothers and sisters Wake the Fuck Up-Stay Woke, And have a Nice Day!!!



It’s Not About Sex

People hear the word intimacy and the first thought is sex, not for me so much. I long for a deeper level of intimacy that can only come from the opposite of lust and sexual satisfaction. I once watched a segment on TV about a guy in New York who is a professional cuddler named, Kan Seidel’s, he understands the benefit of getting close without sex. It sounds extremely weird to think you can feel a reward from cuddling with a complete stranger. It’s because its not about your desire to be with them sexually, its about the person on the receiving end of the interaction itself. The one that is seeking out the affection, feeling of being cared about, and the feeling you get from being touched by another human being. This is so important for us as humans to thrive in the world and feel compassion for one another

The feeling of a warm palmed hand caressing your lower back, the sound of someones soft breathing whistling  in you ear, the feeling of someones fingers messaging your scalp, or even the candor of a tight hug, are all experiences of intimacy, helping bring about a feeling of pleasure, joy, and acceptance. It’s important for Kan to be open and welcoming, allowing himself to be vulnerable enough to make the person on the receiving end feel comfortable. The openness between both people helps to build a level of trust, and the experience could possibly bring about a king relationships between him and his customers. This can be a level of therapy for some and maybe just a new experience for others. Feeling  this kind of intimacy in a professional setting can also be beneficial as it relates to fighting temptation and learning self control. As your body feels the pleasure of each gesture your cuddler makes it, sending signals to the brain thus causing your brain to produce, what some describe as Happy Chemicals, Dopamine, Oxytocin, Serotonin, and Endorphin’s, the emotions can  strike about a persons urge to take it to the next level. Keeping the moment sacred, meaningful, and innocent is a gift. With closer acquaintances this experience can only be successful in the matter of self control.

Copy and paste for more: http://elitedaily.com/wellness/cuddle-strangers-job/1623335/

How does this guy, Kan offering an out of the box experience pertain to me? I seek out not only physical intimacy but also mental intimacy. Our thoughts, fears, insecurities, dreams, admiration, goals, experiences, beliefs, and motivations, are all so very dear to us. Longing to be understood in a world that can often times make you feel alone. Connecting and building is crucial in ones growth and development, the true and purest way is connecting through the mind. To allow yourself to open up and trust a person to not judge you, for someone to listen to your thoughts and deepest emotions is also level a of intimacy . I’ve found myself having intimate moments with a complete stranger. For some odd reason here I am, in a small cafe talking about life, listening to someone else’s interpretation, simply taking the time to share a story with a stranger is  nothing shy of intimacy. Taking something with you from the whole experiences is the point. I’m leaving you all with this, dig deeper past the surface to truly make long lasting connections and experience with those around you. Remember its not all about sex!

Vacation Time

When you proclaim what you want to the universe it hears you! Every step you take and decision you make is perpetuating you toward your wants and desires whether your consciously aware of it or not. I have made some commands of changes and new experiences for this year 2017, I would be lying if I said that the universe hasn’t played a huge roll in things working in my favor so far. As I reflect on the events that has transpired over the past month of this New Year, I already understand so much about the power of our thoughts, my connection with the universe, and most importantly making connections with people, to learn, grow, and to see life through another view…


I pride myself on truth and not allowing negative situations to change or break who I am inside, because of this I’m on my way to Vegas with friends, including a very special and dear companion to me. I said I wanted an honest, and health relationship with someone that I consider a best friend, lover, protector, maybe even husband one day, I’ve met him! The best part is I didn’t find him, he didn’t find me, we were introduced by a mutual friend. Why is that so important to mention? I have a bad habit of choosing the same type of man, as I was embracing my loneliness, my girlfriend asked if I was open to dating someone new. “Yes”! I sad Hesitantly and I’m so glad that I did. I also proclaimed to the universe my desire and long for traveling now here I am on my way to Las Vegas!

Thank you Universe for your contribution to my new love and my first trip of 2017

The Truth

Weird phenomenon, a sign from the gods, or maybe confirmation from the universe? Whatever the case the connection is so real its almost scary. I’m not afraid to love but more afraid of truly opening up just to be let down and hurt again. I knew that there would come a time in my life where my true love would enter and I would have already been damaged by previous relationships. No! I refuse to allow any part of my past to rattle or cause a shake in my future. He is most definitely my future, and I believe in him, as a matter of fact I know hes destined for greatness and so am I.


Its just weird how 2016 course of events led me to be the happiest I’ve been in a very long time. I’m not going to allow the standards of modern day society to define how and who I should love. This is so fresh and new like when you buy a new car the smell just excites you. Yeah! That kind of new…Hes so sincere in every action that my heart is opening whether I want it to or not. Hes not forceful or intruding by any means, allowing me to go at my own pace, as I engage in a friendship/ relationship with him. With each day that turns into night I grow closer to him. Is this a fantasy or illusion of what I want this to be rather than what it actually is? My curious side has convinced me to engage and find out.

Ones action defines his or her own truth. In other words what you do and what you say are totally different. If you say one thing yet do another than what you did is truth and what you said was a lie. This man, future husband, and father of our unborn seed is the Truth, like that one song by India Arie ” The Truth” How could I be so sure? The thing is I’m not sure logically I’m struggling as usual to understand the way he makes me feel. Past hurt has caused me to question my own judgement but still I continue to engage… He treats me differently he treats me like no other man has, and what makes this all so surreal is his actions back up what he says. He sees me, behind my flaws, behind me being human, he sees my heart and most importantly my mind.


*copy& paste link to hear the song: https://youtu.be/0ZwJqaeK9js

Change is Inevitable


True Love takes Sacrifice: 

Only the tides from the strongest of storms can compare to how I have learned to over come some of life hardest struggles. Being born without a father, losing my mother at 16, breaking up with my fiance and father of my son after four years, and overcoming all the little battles in between. January 21 of 2017, made one year that I’ve been single and I’m loving it to some degree. It wasn’t my intention to leave my ex, I wanted to build a life with him and our blended family, but you can not force others to take the proper actions in the right direction. No matter how much you think you love them you must know when the time comes to change the circumstances in which your faced with. Understanding that every decision you make will create a course of events to follow ones decision. I knew no matter how much it hurts to leave the person you love, I had to, for my children, for me, and maybe even for him to see that real love takes sacrifice.

Exchange of Power:

2016 Dating scene was one of the worst! I didn’t jump right back out there I took at least 4-6 months to focus on me and the events that were suddenly changing the course of my life. I imagined myself stuck in a unhappy union with a man that didn’t love his-self, so how could I honestly expect him to love me? He tried, I think he had the best intentions, however when you know your worth you will not settle for emotional and physical abuse, or lack of trust and high levels of manipulation. I could no longer see things in a positive light, to continue to force it would have only done us both more harm than good. I used to be in love, but only the idea of what I thought we could have. I realized being truly in love is a feeling shared between both people a balance and exchange of power.

Hurt but Never Broken:

I lost my stability, trying to love a man, me and my kids were living with family for at least three months before I could find a new place. I traveled to 3 cities surrounding the metro area of Minneapolis everyday for 3 months. From St Paul to Minneapolis to drop the kids to daycare then from Minneapolis to Plymouth,to work, and then back again. Talk about crunch time, stress so high that I started to get terrible Migraines frequently, the only good thing I had going was my job and the income from work to help me through the hurt, betrayal, abandonment, and being able to provide for my children. I went into the relationship heart wide open only to leave with my heart cracked, chipped even, but not broken. I will never allow a man to break me.

Hard Work Pays Off:

Fast forward to me and my babies finally getting into our place. Not much, a simple two bedroom apartment, but its ours and I’m proud of it plus the location is awesome! I didn’t have to change my daughter’s school, the daycare is just a mile or so down the road, grocery store next door, car wash, gas station, car shops, dollar store, restaurants, LA fitness down the street, I think you guys get the point, its all about location, location, location! Most days its sending my baby girl off to her second grade class, dropping my son off at daycare, and off to work and back again. Life as a single mom with little to no financial support from dad, can be super time consuming, stressful, and at most lonely even scary at times. All alone in my battles to care for them, keep them fed, happy and healthy, its the hardest job in the world. Would I trade it? Never!


At the end of November I found myself walking into a bar on a week day. I had no business there, but she swore by their chicken wings and I was hungry. I had the best seat in the house as I watched this tall dark handsome fella with glasses cook up the Cajun dry rubbed wings I ordered. Its not like me to go after a guy and technically I didn’t. My girlfriend Jenny got her crazy ass up and told him that, “I wanted him to come over my house and cook them wings for me personally”, and “they were the best I’d ever had”, and that part was true. The Wing man and I hit it off so great in just for 4 weeks I was in a tranquility of love and passion. Erupt!! That was all ruined 2 days after Christmas When his girlfriend texted my phone asking how many times I was fucked by him?  We mainly talked and laughed together for 4 weeks it wasn’t about sex but enjoying the feeling from being in one another presence. We only were intimate once and I regret it everyday. I was completely blind sided lied to and played. I literally brought my new year in with a shattered heart… 2016 tried to break me!

Fear Cannot Walk with Change:

One month into the new year, and I’m  owning my position in life. Proclaiming to the universe my presence and impact on the world. I have a gut feeling that only helps to confirm that there is something great in the world, waiting for me. I want to help people, change lives, share my story to give people my honest interpretation and experiences in life. I hope that as I share my story and experiences I don’t only want to attract like minds but gain new relationships and connections that can help the course of all of our lives. Words hold wait connecting with others and growing is important when it comes to growth and gaining the real meaning of life. I’m fearless even with my flaws I’m not afraid to fail, feel pain, be alone, fight for what I want, be the odd ball, I’m not afraid to love and be loved.

The Flash 

I met someone and the story is just beginning for us..more to come as I continue to share my course through life…