I’m trapped in a cycle of love, looking for answers deep beneath the surface that lures him to love me
I’m trapped in a cycle of love that feels only isolated, cold, reluctantly bold
I’m trapped in a cycle of love, because it hurts to be brave and open up
I’m trapped in a cycle of love, my generation scorned by matching Jordan’s and love means can you afford it?
I’m trapped in a cycle of love, that feels more like loveless and the only way to get attention is by showing your naked ass
I’m trapped in a cycle of love, when sliding in my dm is how u make a pass and going on a real date is a thing of the past
I’m trapped in a cycle of love, when what’s trending matters more than a conversation with true meaning
I’m trapped, I’m trapped, I’m trapped in a cycle of love, that desperately needs changing!
The guilt that I bare will last an eternity♥ I pray to the universe that one day you will come back to me♥ I ask my mind, to ask my heart, to forgive me♥
Him: What’s wrong
Her thought: You honestly have to ask whats wrong
Her response: oh nothing
Him: I noticed your acting different
Her thought: You started treating me different
Her response: I just have a lot on my mind
Him: Do you love me
Her thought: If I didn’t why the fuck would I be here
Her response: I never stopped
Some Days the Wind Blows and I Feel that its Just for Me
via Daily Prompt: Baby
Did you know that life is not fair, and although you didn’t ask be here, life is apart of your destiny. I only hope that you will find heart break and true love, that you will see the sun rise and hear the ocean roar. I prey to the universe for your health and longevity, that will one day cause tears to well, just enough for you to appreciate all the little things in life. Some people simply move too fast to see, some people don’t want to see. Find yourself in all that is tangible and real. Find peace, find happiness and live without fear. You will never die, when its all said and done you will leave your mark, only to ascend back to be born again.
Freedom is not just something we obtain in a physical form, but also in how we think. Its about how one perceives the circumstances their faced with in life. For example one may spend everyday behind bars and still feel free, maybe even more than a person who is on the outside world. A person can have all the riches and still not be free, yet they feel like a slave to there own existence. Freedom is a state of mind and with knowing this were able to live more fulfilling lives. We are then able to express our true power.
The root word to freedom is “FREE”! Nothing is free in this world and it seems there is a price you must pay. Most are laboring day in and day out, slaves to their bills of providing basic necessities like, housing, food, and clothes. In life we are not meant to be content and confined to our circumstances. Living free of burden and worry is how it really should be. Why do so many believe that this freedom that I’m describing is for us after death. Freedom can be obtained now in life. Free your dome of the disbelief that real love peace and happiness cannot be obtained until after you die. To believe this you will never see the need to truly free your dome (mind). Rid yourself of the negative burdens of false teachings. Open up your mind to allow the process of free-dome to begin.
I am surrounded by darkness, with only a beacon of light, To help guide me through this thing called LIFE.
Music is a universal language! The different vibrations coming together to form a melody that can lift a person out of the pitt of emotional turmoil. It has the power to sooth a crying baby and uplift your spirit for heavens sake. It gives you the ability to travel through time by hearing sound waves that are familiar to you, sparking a memory that you thought was lost. You can even feel past emotion just from hearing an old song that you once loved. When you here music you actually listen to make a connection, something moves inside of you allowing you to see pass race, gender, and class. It’s innocent and you get so excited you want to hear the melody again, heck you even want to share that feeling with a friend.
They say you can learn a lot, just from hearing a person’s choice of music. Listen to the vibrations we all give off and cling to those that sound familiar to you, be called to the sounds that are not and be open minded to fall in love with the melody of change and growth. Lets close our eyes and listen to one another, minus judgment and bias preconceptions.
I’m not giving up on my brothers, I never will, because for one I’m raising a black boy to be a black man in America. I will make sure he understands the value of a black woman. That he takes pride in his title to be the king of the jungle. I want him to understand his power mentally, which is the most powerful thing of all. It is important to teach unity among ones people, the value of taking pride in who you are and owning your thrown. The sad part about it is our black men in north America are worse off due to the lack of education, lack of freedom, lack of structure and balance, lack of income and wealth, lack of being a active father, lack of having descent morality, lack of hope and motivation. I do not say this to degrade my brothers but to actually state the truth and beam the light of revelation to our current situation as a whole. most of you are in prison dead or gang banging and getting high everyday. Listening to music that only spills poison into your mental and paints a false reality of what life should be like. There are 12 jewels in life work your hardest to obtain them for it will bring you all that you seek while in this physical form of existence.
1.Knowledge 2.Wisdom 3. Understanding 4.Food 5.Clothing 6.Shelter 7.Justice 8.Freedom 9.Equality 10.Love 11.Peace 12.Happiness The most precious things in life are priceless. We look to material things to give us a sense of happiness, why not look for happiness in ones self. Ever think about why after a man does time in prison hes now refined and eager for change, because learned how to find happiness in the mind. It’s OK to want nice things, hell I want nice things too. I also want a clear conscious so instead of taking the “easy way out” like selling pussy or shacking up old dirty Harry instead I work honorably to obtain what I need and want in the most righteous way possible. Not only does doing things in a respectful manner keep your conscious clear but it also promotes you to take care of what you’ve worked so hard for your less likely to take for granted what you put your blood sweat and tears into.
I could do most of the list above alone and maybe be content in my situation for a long period of time, eventually one will become dissatisfied, and seek out what is missing. Its about natural order in life man, woman, and child going through out life learning many lessons to grow as a family and individually. Then taking all you’ve learned and pass it on to the next generation. Our people once saw this structure that I describe as important, now not so much, most people make there own rules and we’ve lost touch on whats important in life. Family! What is a family without the man of the house owning his thrown, protecting his queen, teaching the babies, building in all aspects with his queen? This is no fairy tale, this is a reality that few live everyday and most people hope for. I’m no master at life but a student eager for knowledge, eager to learn and share what I know with others. The thoughts I formulate are but a spec of how deep my mind can go and having only so many words to express my deepest emotions. I want change thus allowing for constant growth. I see where we as black people need improvement, understanding the value of togetherness, support, and family to help us get back to where we once were in order to get to where we want to be.
Black man that change starts with you! You are a natural leader so own your thrown. Set an example for the next generation. Show your women that they can believe in you that they can depend on you to not lie steal and cheat your way through life. I know its never easy being a black man in America but its not impossible to make it, its not impossible to overcome the forces that work against you. You will have the support of your beautiful black queen and family to hold you up when your shoulders and head hang low. A Lot of naive Americans will never understand your position being a black man in America, so don’t look for validation from these type of people. Take on the challenge of being praying for your continued failure. Show them who you are by what you do and not what you preach. Peace 🙂